“When I loved myself enough, I began leaving whatever wasn’t healthy. This meant people, jobs, my own beliefs and habits – anything that kept me small. My judgement called it disloyal. Now I see it as self-loving.”
Photography: Bachar Srour
I basically just stumbled upon this quote on Instagram, thanks to my bestfriend who spotted it and tagged me. Why did she? Because we recently had a similar discussion, going through the recent changes we have experienced in our personal lives and where this had led us. I grew up very self-conscious of each and every move I would do, thinking about the way society viewed every single one of my moves. With my work and my high involvement in the worlds of media and fashion, I find myself dealing everyday with a lot of people and projects that I don’t necessarily believe in. This was up until the day I woke up and decided that it was about time I focused back on what genuinely makes me happy. It’s been few months of changes and I’m sure you’ve noticed the change of direction of several of my projects, resigning from a couple of jobs and going in a new direction. I’m not suggesting that I wasn’t doing it the right way; it’s just that I’ve been maturing in the way I view my carrier and one should be very careful to respect the thin line between working hard and still respecting ourselves. And yes a lot of people called me disloyal, others considered it to be a complete shift while some actually questioned each and every single move. The lucky part about this job is that my freedom is endless and I can truly redefine the lines of L’Armoire De Lana for this blog to follow up with every step I take. It’s basically L’Armoire De Lana by Lana El Sahely and not the contrary.
When one frees himself from all of these restrictions, he doesn’t really realize that it’s a step closer to self-loving. It’s actually harder to grasp. My mom was definitely right when she told me that the older I’ll grow, the more different I’ll view things around me..